If you do what you'll always done, You'll get what you've always gotten!

I am leaving for America on the 13 October and wont be back in the UK until the 25 January!
Unless I get killed or something in which case I might be back sooner...or not at all.

Buy like yay all booked :-) Haven't forked over all the money yet but getting there :-)

North America here I come and then South America!

I know me and Jeff aren't going out anymore but I still see him almost everyday and the thought of not seeming him at all for over 3 months feel really strange.

Anyways! I'm all exited and stressed and broke :-)

As a female about to travel thru North America I do have somethings I wonder about.

How safe it is to travel on my own? I have common sense so know not to trust strangers or walk down dark alleys at night etc, but I do still want to go out in the evenings and meet people so if anyone knows what towns I'm safest to go out in and what areas I should avoid etc please let me know.
Also suggestion of bars etc that would be fun for a single woman to go to are appreciated! :-)

I'm am wondering about the following places:

Boston
New York
Washington DC
New Orleans
Los Angeles
Las Vegas
San Fransisco
Seattle

Today I am mad! So mad I want to punch someone...and scream, straight out and very loud!

Intead I went for my weekly food shop but didn't buy any food just cider and loads of unhealthy stuff like Peanut puffs and chocolate and a bunch of DVD's.

Now I'm watching the DVD's and eating crap. I kind of thought it was a better idea then beating someone to a pulp.

Because I'm a grown woman with common sense and it would be a bad idea (or so I tell myself)

Tomorrow I will be OK but until then I will eat crap watch DVD's and when the urge to screm become to much I will put music on loudly and sing until my neighbours want to hit me instead.


BTW the first DVD I watched was save the last dance, I wish I could dance like that. I got rhytm so I'm sure I could be taugh quite easily but sadly there is noone to teach me and they didn't have any dance schools where I grew up (and if they had my mum would not have let me go anyway). I know that sounds random but I am a random person.

Think I will watch Rachel getting married next or maybe Iron man...

On my lunch break and both Twitter & Facebook isn't working which bugs me thou It really don't matter that much.

Starting to get a headache thinks it's due to not having slept properly for the last...I think it's 6 nights now. But my back wont stop hurting when I lay down.

Have some big decitions to make & I should have made them yesterday! (and by yesterday I mean weeks ago) Don't think that's helping with the sore head.  At the moment I feel very level but like I'm just waiting for the scales to go one way or the other & I start screaming or crying depening on what fits. Maybe I just worry to much.

Things will work out OK, it's not like I'm dying or anything and life will have plenty of time to be both bad & good. Rewatching all the seasons of Grey's Anatomy at the moment, don't know why but I think it's what's keeping me level at the moment, level and calm.

Do I sound nuts? Like one of does people that might just loose it and start killing people? I hope not but if I do please just blame it on the sleep deprivation :-)

Don't fall in love!
Save money and then spend it on travelling.
Remember that you are the only person you can trust completely and never ever let yourself down.
Do what you do to make yourself happy not someone else, because if they care about you they would want you to do what makes you happy.
Smile often, and mean it!

Watched the BBC version of North & South yesterday. All the episodes in one go. Never seen it before.
It was brilliant! :-)
And Armitage is seriously drool worthy! Just wanted to share :-)
Also I wonder if the original version was any good. Did anyone see it? If so let me know.

I know I don't post that much anyway but though I better let everyone know that I'm going home to Sweden for a week, leaving tomorrow morning. So wont be around much if at all.

So hope you all have fun without me, just not to much fun :-)

Started watching Bones a couple of wks ago. Completely hooked now!
Already on the 2nd season.
Also I have a thing for Hodgins (TJ Thyne), I'm quite sure everyone else fancies Booth, but not me, no I fancy the bug geek :-)

Been thinking a lot lately about what I should do for a living. I mean it would be great if i could make jewellery full time but even if I could I think I would want a "normal" job too.
I know it's sounds strange butI like to work, and I really want a job were I use my brain, work with nice people, can put loads of effort in but be rewarded for it too.
I want a job were I have quite an important position and were I can have a career.
To explain:
I would enjoy working somewhere like an art gallery (it would appeal to the artist in me) but I think the actual work would eventually bore me because lets admit it, it requires social skills and maybe some art knowledge but no real brain work.

That came out wrong. I know it requires skill and work etc but it's not exactly solving world starvation.
I want something challenging (thou perhaps not solving world starvation kind of challenging).

Also right at this moment I'm not in a position to find this brilliant job because i am planning on going travelling for 2-3 month in the USA.
If it started in January next year that would be perfect.

Any ideas?
Yeah right ! Like things ever just work out like that, but I will persevere and find the job of my dream to fit around the life of my dream etc. Only problem is, my dreams are dead confusing and strange at the best of times.

Oh, on that subject, guess what I dreamt last night!
I'm really quite upset BNP got voted into the EU Parliament and last night I dreamt they were taking over the UK. Here comes concentration camps for immigrant and gays etc. *brrr*
Lets hope it was just a creepy dream and not so much a vision of things to come.

Wow 2 post in 1 day. That's very productive for me.

This is just something random that I just wrote and I thought that I might as well post it.
I don't dare to post any of my complete stories especially since they are generally x-rated, but this is only a small snippet or something. In fact I'm not quite sure what it is, it just popped into my head and demanded to be written down.

( She turned in her sleep... )

For no particular reason I thought it would be a good thing to make a list of things about me that noone here probably knows (yes I'm bored)
I did try to put them under a cut but for some reason it wont let me paste into the cut so I couldn't.

Twenty random things about me:

1: I don’t have a favourite colour. I mean, why should I have to choose just 1 colour when there is so many out there? 

2: I’m not afraid of dying, nor does the idea of dying young bother me all that much. What bothers me is the thought that I might die without ever having achieved something. Now that petrifies me!

3: I don’t believe in happily ever after, now what I hope for is a completely different matter.

4: I believe in Karma.

5: I love to travel, and I really mean love to travel. After all that’s how I ended up in the UK. And next I’m doing America (but only for a holiday).

6: I want to get a motorbike before I die (and a licence as well of course).

7: I’m Bossy, and loud. And I never want to change

8:  I am dead loyal to my friends but you have to be loyal back. I don’t forgive others easily, trick me once shame on you, trick me twice…and all that stuff.

9: I fell OK about the way I look most of the time, and don’t understand why on earth I should be a size 6. Also it drives me up the wall that my whole family (except for maybe my dad) is size crazy. To them loosing weight is a thing to be celebrated. But seeing I’m (except for my mum) is the only healthy one out of the lot while they are always sick, kind of just proves my point even more. I’m 177cm tall and a size 14 (but sometimes I’m also either a 12 or 16) and to me that’s fine.

10: I love chocolate and ice cream, but not chocolate ice cream.

11: I’m turning 29 this year and I still don’t have kids or a husband. Also I really don’t want either. This worries me sometimes, I fell like I should want those things. And what if I do one day but it’s too late?

12: I’m very very stubborn and don’t like to admit I’m wrong.

13: I use Google to prove my point whenever I disagree with someone about the answer to a question.

14: The man of my dreams is Hugh Jackman (or Wolverine depending on the way you look at it). Also this is hardly a surprise to some of you.

15: I’m a geek and I’m OK with that.

16:  I used to get upset when I was little because the other kids didn’t like me.  These days I don’t care who hates my guts or thinks I’m weird or whatever. I mean why should I? The only time I’d care is if it’s a close friend. But then again you wouldn’t be a close friend unless you know what I’m like.

17:  I sing or hum or talk 95% of the time. When I’m quiet people worry.

18: Thou I’m always energetic and talkative I actually like being on my own with no one around to talk to for days on end. I’m both social and anti social.

19: I hate crowds. And thou I love having new clothes I hate shopping because it means I have to push thru people and be in tiny smelly cubicles to get them.

20:  I’m happy with me.

 

My room is so hot that I can’t sleep in it!

Therefore I watched Twilight instead and am now sitting by the computer.

I have been given very different views about this film. Adults seem to hate it, whilst teenagers love it.

Teens love it because of the all consuming love story, the thought that somewhere out there, there is someone just for you and they would live and die for you!

The adults hate it for pretty much the same reason. The thought that someone would love you so much they follow you and climb thru your window at night just sounds stalkerish too them and I can understand that. After all you don’t want you’re kids thinking that is a healthy relationship.

 So what did I think?

 Well I…liked it. It’s a good film, and though I see why some adults would find it worrying it seems more likely to me that they’ve forgotten how they felt at that age, because at that age when I fell in love I felt just like Bella, sadly my choice of blokes were nowhere near as good as Bella’s. I mean everyone in my school hated my guts so any guy I liked avoided me like the plague, which in retrospective probably was for the best!

But I remember that feeling of loving someone so much you would die if they didn’t love you back. And thou thinks never work out the way they do for Bella and Edward I appreciate the sentiment.

I think that to feel something that intently is worth aspiring to!

 

My weekend has been OK.

On Friday I just stayed home relaxing after work.

On Saturday I went out but ended up having a big argument, so Saturday wasn’t much fun.

Yesterday I was outside most of the day which was nice but did mean I ended up with a heat rash, now that isn’t unusual for me so I didn’t really feel anything, just looked funny with my red blotchy arms. And then in the evening I went out for dinner.

Today I’ve made some resin jewellery, now I’m just browsing the web (obviously) and then I’ll probably get back to making jewellery. Might have a nap at some point thou cause I was woken up ridiculously early by something loud. Don’t ask me what it was but someone was definitely crushing something.

Also I’m actually enjoying the fact that it’s not so hot today because yesterday I discovered my new room turns into a sauna in the heat, even having a fan on didn’t help, which is one of the reasons I was out all day. So at least today I can stay in and do stuff.

 Haven’t written anything for ages, maybe I will today.

 

Thinking about going to the London comic con in july (yes it already an established fact that I'm a geek ;-P). Anybody fancy going with me?

Need to sort out some new profile pics. Bored with old ones now.
Hope everyone is having a nice weekend mines been quite crap.
:-)

Have had a nackering week at work, but atleast it's finished now. Just had a shower and will now go get takeaway then watch NCIS. Haven't even had time to check peoples updates, but should get plenty of time for that at the weekend.

If I still have some people on here that list me as a friend. Sorry for the long absence but I haven't had internet. But now I do :-)
Also I'm on Twitter as linaxcq is anyone else?

I am moving and downsizing quite badly so need to get rid of a bunch of my books and comics.
The books are almost all as new except for a couple that I bought second hand.
They are all going cheap so if you live in the UK (or abroad but be aware I would need to check postage before agreeing a sale) and like any of the following have a look and buy some cheap but really good books!

Anita Blake books!
Christine Feehans Dark series (Vampires)
Buffy season 8 comics

I can spot a theme...

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When I was yonger and constantly singel I kewpt dreaming about how great it would be to have a boyfriend for Valentines day. And that one day I would have a boyfriend for Valentines and it would be great!

Well guess what , I'm 28 and I have had my share of valentines days both with and without boyfriends and they only have one thing in commen...they allllll sucked!

So I guess the answer is I hate valentines day!

Just wanted to say happy b-day to the absolutely  fabulous and talented imissimissyou!!!
Sorry I didn't do it earlier today but I just got logged on!
I hope you and you sister had (and still have) a great Birthday today and that you got loads of great presents. :-)